Alone

 My husband doesn't love everything I love, and the same is true of some of the things he loves to do. But we do quite a bit together. Our friend circle has gotten so small, and our tolerance for BS is why. We are typically okay with it, but when I go thrifting, go to garage sales, or craft those things, I go alone. Sometimes, wouldn't it be fun to have a girlfriend, or even my daughter, to hang out with and do these things? But I just don't have that in my life anymore. I keep my friendships at a distance. I have been burned so many times in my life that I can't bear to have any more loss of friends or family. Even my brother-in-law and sister-in-law avoid doing stuff with us. They never invite us, and when we ask them, they ignore us. Why do I keep trying? I don't know. Some friendships we were used in, and now that we are no longer needed for whatever reason, those friendships have died. Anyway I am alone a lot I am not overly sad about it but once in awhile I think man how cool would it be to be doing this with my friend.  

We have our Tuesday-night friends. We meet for dinner and drinks, and we look forward to that time. One of the gals started inviting us to their home, and we asked them to our home, usually for drinks and a bite to eat, and that was fun, too. In our Tuesday night group, we planned a girls' trip. There are just three of us, and it will be until the end of August. We are going to Wisconsin to our camper for two nights, and we know we will have lots of fun and laughs.

My other friend and I have a cruise planned for January 2025. We go out every couple of months and have a great time. We do many things, so it's always different when we go out. We all like trying new stuff and new events, and we all love live music.

Another couple we see less often but love to do stuff with. We have dinner and drink plans for July 27th, and we always have a great time when we get together. We gals are planning a trip to Kansas City for a night, so we will talk about that on the 27th.

Well, two out of the three of us did end up going to the camper for a long weekend. It was a blast, our couple of friends, we still do stuff. We love trying new things, so anytime there is an incredible pop-up place or a band we like in town, we go check them out. They have become really good friends. Because of Dustin and my love of live music, we recently (2025) met a new couple we clicked immediately, and to have that happen is so amazing, so we do get together with them, even went to their house for a bonfire, dang that was fun! Anyway, friends come and go, but the older I get, the better the friendships become. I know I could call any of these people, and they would be there for us in a heartbeat, and those are people you keep in your life....  I don't feel alone anymore. Those friendships that died made me feel that way, but I don't look at it that way anymore. They are no longer in our lives, probably for good reason.