Depression is a BITCH!!

 I finally got off my butt & finished a project I started weeks ago (dragonfly). I lost my oomph. I have been hit with so much these past 6 months I just don't want any more bad news; it's been a long, long time since I have been hit with so many things all at once, so I got in the dumps, and it just spiraled not to say I am out of the dumps, but I am climbing my way out one day at a time.

I know people are dealing with so much more, but in my world, so am I. I get to complain for a minute, and that's okay. I am not comparing anyone's stuff to my stuff.

You can't explain to someone who has never suffered from depression to understand the doom and gloom one feels. It takes hold and speaks for you when you know it isn't true what your depression is sometimes saying, you can't stop it, and you feel so overwhelmed with everything that even the most minor task is difficult as hell.

I am so very grateful I haven't had this low in a long, long time, but man, when it happens, you can't stop it; even the most intelligent people can't stop depression; she is a sneaky bitch, but when she takes hold it's all you can do to get away from it!!

So I probably overdid it last night because I am getting over bronchitis on top of being sad, so that doesn't help my mood. I swept and mopped the kitchen and bathroom and picked up the office and the living room; all the clutter had been removed. LOL, for now, until I can deal with all my stuff. Crafting is messy, and I am spread out all over the house, which doesn't help me be the organized self that I love. The youngest is preparing to move out, so there's that which has me in a range of emotions I can't even explain, literally proud to sad AF.

 Okay, enough of all that. I know some of you are worried about me, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart, but I am okay, and I will be okay. 

Do you know why it took me weeks to make this damn dragonfly? I am my own worst critic, and I could never get something just right? Finally, I said F'it, it's beautiful the way it is, and yes, she's not perfect, but she is so pretty! Hell, even her antenna glows in the dark, which is cool as shit!!